it was worse than she would have ever thought. he hadn’t meant fallen from power or fallen from favor( with so many potential new siblings, losing her spot as the favorite was bound to happen eventually). he’d meant fallen from grace. from HEAVEN.
and in this universe it had happened toher.
“ oh… ” samael’s voice softens to match castiel’s, the new knowledge wearing her shoulders down. at least she could take comfort in the fact that her older brother was well. or. as well as he could be. the second oldest banished. father nowhere to be found. how did he bear it?“ how different, exactly? i…i know i’m…but everyone is happy, right? ”
Speaking to her was an exquisite sort of pain; she reminds him of a long time ago, when he knew no such thing as grief. Did not know what it felt like to be tortured by your own kin. When he and Samandiriel would chase one another across the beautiful light of the cosmos, stopping to watch stars be born, bolting again and he remembers that he was happy then.
Back when he still sang for God.
Now, he only sings for Jimmy.
“No,” he says, to her last question. “The Host, as a whole– I don’t think we’re happy.” Castiel is careful with his words, choosing them with deliberation and patience, perhaps because she reminds him of that time, long lost. “Long ago – over six thousand years now – Lucifer acted upon his jealousy of Father’s love of humans and tried to convince Michael to rebel with him. He had many who loved him and sympathized with him. Father cast him from Heaven along with the others, and in his anger, Lucifer took a human soul – a child named Lilith – and tortured her until he made her into a monster, and Hell was born of his rage and her pain. Father changed us from muses and singers to soldiers, and we spent the next four thousand years fighting an ever growing demon army. Finally, Father made Yeshua, whose sacrifice ensured humans could only be condemned by their choice, instead of being tortured into it, and it also closed the Hell gates. We stood down, the Host, for two thousand years until the Apocalypse began quite recently.”
It was a lot to absorb, and Castiel pauses there to allow her to grasp it.
for as painful as it must be for
him to recount the tale of the past few millennia, it is doubly so for her
hearing it and envisioning all of the
pain and wrath and destruction
and FEAR.
it hurt to imagine that that was what she had to look forward to in her own
time — her own universe — when the
humans were finally created.
six thousand years seems almost
too short a time for their family to fall completely and utterly apart and
bring about the end of everything. was that really all it took? how long did
she have before those six thousand years would tear apart her world? two thousand? twenty?
there’s something about his story
that trips her up, though. a name. LUCIFER. it’s not one she can readily
place to any one of her brothers and it unnerves her. scares her,
really. is he one of the newer ones that had yet to come as well, like castiel?
would it really be one of her younger brothers that would ruin all that she had
come to love out of spite for one of father’s more flawed ( but still, somehow, GOOD) creations? did their father really have it in him to create such…such cruelty?
yes, a small part of her answers. yes he did. she’s seen it in glimpses of her study of humans —
cruelty with an even greater
capacity for love. where they created they also destroyed, and she’d find herself conflicted in her feelings of
them.
“ lucifer, ” she finally starts, her curiosity too great
to keep her from inquiring further. maybe if she knows she can prevent this
before it ever happens.“i-i don’t…i don’t recognize the name. when
was his creation? who came before him?”
“Cast out by Father,” Castiel explains, his tone instantly shifting to something more gentle and soft, when he realizes just how far out of time that she is. He can’t strictly guess, the different creations made that impossible, but he could gather it is a time when angels still don’t have any concept of war or of sorrow. It makes him wish that he could prevent her ever finding out.
“He is. He is not Michael as you know him, though; he is Heaven’s general and holds the throne. Father is– not there. Everything is very different, from when you come from.”
CAST OUT?
it was worse than she would have ever thought. he hadn’t meant fallen from power or fallen from favor( with so many potential new siblings, losing her spot as the favorite was bound to happen eventually). he’d meant fallen from grace. from HEAVEN.
and in this universe it had happened toher.
“ oh… ” samael’s voice softens to match castiel’s, the new knowledge wearing her shoulders down. at least she could take comfort in the fact that her older brother was well. or. as well as he could be. the second oldest banished. father nowhere to be found. how did he bear it?“ how different, exactly? i…i know i’m…but everyone is happy, right? ”
Castiel’s eyebrows go up and then draw together and he looks at her more closely there. Samael, in this timeline, is one of the fallen (though not Lucifer himself) and Castiel spent much of the first half of the First War tracking down and killing the fallen, though he had never succeeded in killing that particular one. But if she isn’t of this Creation, she might be innocent; perhaps she is from some world where there was no Fall.
“Samael, in this timeline, is fallen,” he says after a moment, though it’s just imparting information and not harsh in the least. “You should be careful speaking to any other angel you might encounter. Ah– you probably should not tell them you’ve met me, as well.”
“ …fallen? ” her head cocks, eyebrows drawing in from confusion as she tries to process the term and all its implications. fallen how? fallen from what? he said it so solemnly that it couldn’t be a good thing, and that train of thought made her wary.
if falling was such a bad thing, why would she have done it? what could have possibly happened?
“ there are still so few of us in my time, forgive me. everything is still so…so new. ” she’s jumped around so much that it was starting to become difficult to remember exactly what age they were in ( dinosaur or ice? ), but the humans that littered the planet now did not exist yet. samael had yet to decide whether that was a good or bad thing. “ i’m not sure i’d know what to do with myself if i met any of the others. i’m older than most, but then…i’m not. is michael well? ”
“Tell– who?” Castiel asked back, confused even further as he looked at the strange angel in front of him, so incredibly different from anything he’d ever seen before. Did she mean God? Michael? “Ah– I can’t tell anyone anything. I’m not supposed to be here, either.”
At least it was less likely to cause difficulties, if they were both trying to stay hidden. If not, Castiel would have to flee; he couldn’t afford to be caught here, out of his own time. “My name is Castiel,” he finally said, taking a chance on her that he might not have had she looked more certain and less lost. “I traveled backwards in the timestream to try to help my friends, but I don’t have the power to return yet.”
Though he did have hopes he’d figure something else. While he and Jimmy could wait it out, the temptation to change things would be nigh on unbearable.
“castiel? ” the name is foreign and familiar on her tongue, and it takes her a moment to figure out why. cassiel. of course. funny how just one letter could change so much and so little at the same time. how far in the future was the birth ( or creation, rather ) of this brother? or would he not exist in her universe?
for some reason, that thought made her heart constrict painfully.
perhaps it’s the shared camaraderie of their situation — both of them stuck in a time where they don’t belong. samael wonders, for a moment, if it was his own trip that pulled her here instead of her intended destination but drops that train of thought quickly. why place blame when the result was happy enough? she had a new brother to meet. as long as she could return to her own universe, what was the harm really?
Castiel had been avoiding other angels for obvious reasons: He was in the wrong time and the wrong place, and they would feel the temporal dissonance. Even half fallen and weakened, they would see he was out of time where he should not be. He had no real idea what had happened to Anael or the Winchesters, and so it was really only him and Jimmy and trying to find a way back to their own time period without having the live it all.
She was an angel, but she was unlike any he had ever seen before. He could feel the power, but it vibrated at the wrong frequency to this creation, and it was instantly enough to both confuse him and make him feel wary.
Her expression wasn’t one of malice, though. She seemed frightened, so after a moment, Castiel answered with his own cautious, “Hello.”
“ hello, ” she repeated, more confident this time as she looked him over. he looked…wrong. contained. she was prepared to investigate some more when she realized that more than repeated introductions were probably in order. she still had so many questions of her own.
will you help me? where am i? did you bring me here? how do i get back? why can’t i get back? is it you? is it this universe? tell me something. tell me anything. tell me everything.
in the end, samael settled for assurance. “ will you tell him? ”HIM. their father. at least, she assumed he’d be their father. despite being wrong — it was the soul, she realized, the human soul mingled with grace that made him look so strange; why didn’t he just cloak himself for human perception? the earthly plane should be doing the rest… — he was still an angel, albeit a strange one.
“ he doesn’t need to know to send me back, does he? we’re not supposed to look ahead. if he finds out… ”
when she first notices him he’s just a head of dark hair attached to a beige overcoat, seemingly out-of-place until he turns to reveal a handsome face and decent (but truly, painfully cheap) suit underneath. that’s when she notices him. tall. handsome. strange. she’s walking over towards him, ready to give the standard lucifer greeting she gives to every pretty newbie when she pauses.
the last stranger who’d been in here… he was short. scruffy. dressed in jeans and a sweatshirt of all things. he’d looked at her almost knowingly, an annoying smile paired with near-constant cheekiness as they bantered back and forth. he hadn’t radiated power, and her own snooping for any sort of glamour turned up nothing, but the encounter left her…wary.
it never hurts to check, does it?
so this time as lucifer makes her way towards the handsome newcomer she’s on her guard, opening herself up to the supernatural perceptions she usually leaves locked away for convenience. she isn’t expecting…that is to say…it isn’t meant do much. most beings keep a glamour wrapped tightly around them that takes time to peel back and this should just…reveal the outside of it. nothing more.
this immense being of mostly formless energy ( and wings; massive, beautiful wings of silvers and grays dipped in hellfire black at the tips of his primaries that make her shoulder blades itch and twinge in phantom pain ) is the LAST thing she’s expecting to see.
her breath catches and she takes the last few steps to close the space between them and leans in. “ …you don’t belong here, ” she says, voice low and controlled as she tries to conceal her panic. don’t take me back. i can’t go back. i’ll never go back. not now. not EVER.
Part of it was likely that he was still healing from the damage that time travel had done to him. And part of it was being temporally out of synch; right now, his younger self was in quiet observation with the garrison. But there was something else, too.
Jimmy was asleep and though Castiel was confused, he didn’t wake the man, letting him rest until Jimmy woke himself up. Instead, he tentatively followed the strange energy pattern until he landed close to– a woman? But not.
SOMETHING HAD GONE WRONG.
samael wasn’t quite sure what
or even how, but as she observed the
surroundings around her ( wrong, it was all WRONG) two things became
abundantly clear. ONE: here was not Iyáangẚ. she couldn’t be sure where
exactly here was, but she knew it wasn’t there. TWO: she was not alone.
panic came first. what
if they told father? what if he already
knew? she did her best to tamp that fear down before it spiraled out of
hand. there was no guarantee that her visitor was one of her brothers. perhaps
it was another of HIS creations. when
she reached out with her own senses she was met with a presence that tasted of
a heaven tainted, and she paled.
THIS WAS NOT HER UNIVERSE.
even worse, as she tried to right her mistake before she
came face-to-face with theother she found herself strangely…drained. she was STUCK. stuck in an
unfamiliar time, an unfamiliar place, and with unfamiliar people. family, she tried to remind herself. different, of course, but they were still
family. maybe he would help.
PORTRAYAL. Like it says in the description, this is a blog for the character Lucifer Morningstar from FOX’s LUCIFER with a feminine twist. This blog will be primarily based in the series with little to no influence from the source material the show was based off of. Sorry, but I’m a broke college student who’s too lazy/busy to try and find free versions of it online. I also find that I often prefer to incorporate my own headcanons and interpretation of the lore that exists anyway, so do not expect her to perfectly align with any one canon, especially the comics.
Though Lucifer loathes the human need to label everything and because, as a celestial being, her outward appearance is a manifestetion of sense-of-self and thought, if pressed, she would identify as trans given the widespread misconception of masculinity associated with her due to the word of God and a belief that He intended she be His second son and not His first daughter. As such, I plan to incorporate this idea in situations where Lucifer is not truly the devil, and as a human, Lucifer is a trans woman. Her faceclaim in these verses ( which I plan to utilize more often when this blog is more active ) will be Michelle Hendley. Though I do plan to continue using Mallory Janson to portray Lucifer as a celestial being, I am open to critique and discussion as I understand there are many issues with using a cis faceclaim to portray a trans character, however grey the term is when Lucifer is, indeed, the devil. My ideas for execution of this interpretation are by no means perfect, and there is some confusion for me given how I am approaching this change of portrayal. Please, bear with me and feel free to educate me on how I can improve what I am doing to help better the trans community, especially in the Tumblr RPC.
Something else that I feel I should note in here: I DO NOT CONSIDER AMENADIEL TO BE THE OLDEST. I do draw heavy inspiration for my portrayal of Luci from biblical lore, and thus in terms of creation Michael would be the oldest, Lucifer the second oldest, and so on and so forth. I do, however, see Amenadiel as the oldest of the angels, where Michael would be the oldest of the archangels, thus giving him ( in my view )some pull as the oldest of a particular grouping.
ACTIVITY. My activity on this blog will be low and sporadic, mainly. Right now I'm juggling college and color/winter guard, so it'll be tricky to be on as much as I'd like to. I’ll do my best to build a queue that’ll run semi-frequently, but that’s very low priority for me at the moment. If you see me active and I owe you a reply, though, don’t hesitate to give me a little nudge. Sometimes my procrastinating ass needs one.
FORMATTING. With each new blog I make I adopt a new kind of formatting style. The one I use right now is one that I’m very happy with and probably will not be changing anytime soon. Please don’t feel obligated to match this. I’m not super picky about the aesthetics of my blog, and the only change I’ll make ( if ever ) is from normal text to small text. I personally DO NOT use the super small text but if that’s what you like to use it’s fine. I’ve got very little trouble reading it and it doesn’t inconvenience me. I will mirror-format ONLY in some cases and ONLY at the writer’s request.
STATUS. As of right now this blog is NOT mutuals only. ALL starter calls posted are open to ALL of my followers, regardless of mutual status. As a warning: if we are NOT mutuals and you like a starter call, I expect you to contact me via IM or ask with ideas on how our characters could interact. It doesn’t have to be anything major. It just makes the process of writing MUCH easier and makes me more likely to follow you in the long run.
SHIPPING. Lucifer is, as a general rule, a rather shameless flirt and very liberal in her sexual escapades. Your character is free to reciprocate/react however they would like, but try to keep in mind that part of the character mythos is that she is pretty much irresistible to anyone and everyone who would normally be attracted to her. If we can find a reason for your character to have some level of immunity to this in crossover situations that’s fine, but on the whole that won’t be something that should happen very often.
Please also note that romantic ships on this blog will not be frequent and will require quite a bit of development if they ever are to happen. I’m a ship whore, but chemistry is very important.
MEMES. I LOVE MEMES. If you want to send in the thing, pleasedo. I will most definitely appreciate it, even if I take threebillionyears to respond. Memes are ALSO a great way to start RPs with no prior plotting or even prior interaction, so I do really encourage you to send them in! Meme me up, Scotty!
EXCLUSIVITY. As of right now, I am NOT muse exclusive with any blogs and have NO intentions of doing so in the near future. I will, however, consider practicing ship exclusivity in certain cases.
CREDITS. All icons were screencapped and edited by me. Please do not steal them. Current theme is courtesy of @nonaziharlot. History heavily inspired and modeled after @gcdgiven's original bio with permission. Please do not copy.
FINAL NOTES. Congratulations! You’ve finished this brick! I don’t do passwords or the like because they’re awkward to me, but I really appreciate you taking the time to read this. As I’ve said before, I’m always open to interaction and plotting so feel free to hit me up whenever! If we are mutuals you are also always free to ask for me Skype! Have a lovely day!
about.
GENERAL
name: Lucifer Morningstar.
nicknames: Luci. Lu. Lulu. Luc. Lucy Ricardo. aliases: The Devil. Satan. Prince(ss) of Darkness. King Queen of Hell. Abbadon. Belial. Old Scratch. Samael.The Light Bringer.
gender: Female. date of birth: The Beginning™.
place of birth: The Center™. age: Ageless.
orientation: Pansexual. Demiromantic.
education: —.
religion: Christianity.Pleasure.
PHYSICAL
height: 5'9".
weight: 132 lbs.
species: Archangel.
hair color: Brown.
eye color: Green.
scars: Twin ovals on her back from when she cut off her wings.
tattoos: —. dominant hand: Right.
faceclaim: Mallory Jansen.
FAMILY
father: God.
mother: Mum.
brother(s): Michael. Gabriel. Raphael. Uriel. Amenadiel. etc.
sister(s): Azrael.
persuasion: The ability draw out people’s forbidden desires. The more simple the human, the easier it is. The more complex, the more challenging and interesting. Chloe Decker is immune to this for reasons beyond even Lucifer’s understanding.
super strength: Small, but full of fite™. Able to punch through walls, throw fully grown men across the room without a push, and hold her own against an angel ( presumably ) at full strength. Extended endurance (/winks) and super speed can also be assumed.
shapeshifting: All angels come readily equipped with the ability to create ( and also see through ) glamours at will. Generally this is used to hide their wings while on Earth or ( in ye olde days ) to fuck with the humans when visiting them for a laugh (looking at you, Gabriel), but Lucifer frequently uses this ability to give humans a glimpse of her hellish form and what awaits in the deepest pits of hell.
immortality: Unable to die by normal, mortal means. Exceptions to the rule are demon blades, other angels, and Chloe Decker’s presence. She makes her vulnerable.
flight: With wings, she can fly (and so much MORE). Without them, she is grounded.
HISTORY
❝ once upon a time, a boy met a girl. and they fell in love. they had sex. the only trouble was they were celestial beings, so that moment created the universe. ❞
Sometimes — not often, but sometimes —
there are those who prefer to deal in favors of knowledge than favors of
pleasure or gain. Lucifer rarely indulged in them ( even just a fraction of an inkling of pure, unfiltered knowledge of the universe is enough to turn the average human brain into mush, and wasn’t that just such a WASTE?), but sometimes...sometimes she got bored. Sometimes, when faced with the oh-so-common and oh-so-boring question — how did it all begin? — she’d smile coyly and, instead of the standard, polite refusal, lean in close and whisper conspiratorially...
You humans already got that bit right.
THE BIG BANG. An apt ( if slightly disturbing) name for the actions of her parents in creating the
universe. To think, all it had taken was one truly stellar orgasm between a couple of celestial beings to spark the whole of Creation. Generally, the story stopped there: complete and irritatingly
unfinished at the same time. She’d learned her lesson in telling the rest on a cold night in Bethany — a final plea to a dead man walking.
When she did tell it, it went a bit like this...
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ONCE,
there was a father who wasn’t a Father yet, and a mother who wasn’t a Mother yet, and they fell in love. From their love came Creation, and following Creation came children — a whole Host of children, all of whom were brilliant and passionate and...AND.
While Mother and Father consummated their love, further expanding the universe, the Host amused themselves, forming bonds and cultivating talents. The core bond, consisting of the first five to be borne, later came to be known as the archangels — each exalted for their individual talents. Michael, the sword, strongest and bravest of the Host; Samael, the light, heart and soul of the Host; Raphael, the cross, healer of all ills; Gabriel, the voice, brilliant composer and beautiful singer; and Uriel, the brain, lover, creator, and solver of patterns simple and complex.
For a time, everyone was happy. When Father said let there be light and lit up the gaseous expanse of the universe, one of the Host, Samael, stared on and, with all the wonder and insistence and innocence of a small child, tugged on Father’s metaphorical sleeve and asked — no, begged — for more. Because she was His light, He indulged in her request. With a wave of his hand, the light-bearing mist collided, burning and brightening and forming brilliant
new STARS.
take care of them, little one. Father said, gently pushing her to the newly formed cluster. Like Mother and Father had done before her Samael gathered the stars, grace pulsing with love as she carried them out among the cosmos, placing them into constellations and galaxies in representations of her brothers back home. She watched with joy as they grew into their power, growing and consuming and expanding out further into the universe her parents had created, each partitioning their own portion of the remaining expanse and pulling it towards them, never dying while she was around to pull them back from the brink.
In their gratitude, they’d given her the name Morningstar, for night never came when she was there. It was a name she’d forever cherish.
Eventually, (seven days) millions or billions of years from when she had been charged with her task, Samael was called back home. Much had changed in the time she’d been living among the stars. Her family had grown, including one more sister in a sea of new brothers and...humans.
They were curious little creatures. Young, certainly, in comparison to the angels and certainly the archangels. Dirty. If Samael looked closely she could see bits of the clay Father had modeled them from peeking out. Most of all, they were favored.
Samael watched with her sister and brothers as Father gave them gifts He’d never dared to give to the Host: a home orbiting the first star she’d ever placed — a beautiful young thing named Sol; the garden, home to a tree bearing fruit containing pieces from before Creation; and a destiny headed towards greatness, meant to somehow make what was already perfection better. For the first time in the whole of her existence, Samael felt envy.
When Father asked demanded humans receive the protection of the Host as well, Samael grit her teeth and obeyed as her siblings did. Even if they couldn’t make things better, even if she didn’t particularly like or even know them...they were family.
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The tale wouldn’t end there, merely pause. The devil didn’t need to stretch her legs, but her audience did. So, what do you say, beardy? Are you ready for more?His placid smile set her on edge, but she smirked through it. If she was going to save him she’d need to continue.
Right. Carrying on.
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So Samael obeyed, bitterness held at bay by the fond whispers of the stars ( O’! Bright and Glorious Morningstar!) and the firmly held belief that she was still His favorite, no matter how much He doted on the youngest siblings. Days became weeks became months became years as she watched over Father’s pet project like the rest of the Host, confusion (and perhaps — in much, much later hindsight — a certain fondness) growing as she watched the two stumble along the garden.
Are we not just as worthy, if not more, of these gifts Father has given them? she’d asked her siblings, some nodding in more awe than agreement at their older and beloved sister while others (MOST) grit their teeth as she had.
It is not our place to question Father. Only to obey.Why?He is the Creator.He is not the only one. We have created just as much as He has. Why
should we devote our existence to His creations and not ours as well?Do not press. Do not think. Simply do.
Despite ( or perhaps, in spite of ) her siblings’ insistence, Samael thought and thought. Angels were divine, just as Mother and Father were, so their creations were just as pure. Humans, though, were too far removed from divinity to hope to create anything but adequate in comparison. They couldn’t possibly make Father’s creations better. So, Samael went to confront her father — remaining family witness to the slaughter.
The fight lasted...it lasted a while. Time seemed to blur amid the shouting match that followed, but she was sure it was years, decades even, before it ended, and oh...oh, how it had ended. THE STARS HAVE TAUGHT YOU TO BURN TOO HOT, LITTLE ONE. Samael, burning with the shame of her Father’s scolding, lunged forward, hands clenched and tensed for...for...something.
And Michael — strongest, bravest, and obedient eldest brother that he was — stepped between them, sword at hand. It didn’t burn at first, not until it reached Samael’s star-touched grace. Where sword met, soul blackened, tearing and cauterizing and chasing away the brightness that had once defined her very existence. Without that...she fell.
Despite reaching hands, despite
begging eyes, not one brother or sister stepped forward to save her. Down, down the Bringer of Light went, landing in smoke and fire in a crater in Eden, fallen to one of the lowest planes of existence. In her grief, homesickness, and perhaps still in rebellion she burrowed herself even further, hiding away from the light of the stars she was no longer permitted to visit.
And the rest, as they say, is history.
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Silence would follow, polluting the air for several minutes. Even millennia later, the wounds of her punishment were still fresh. Are you
still prepared to die for Him? For this pointless cause? she’d asked eventually, demeanor somber, not smug. The serene quiet that followed felt like Michael’s stoic, unflinching betrayal.
BROTHERS.
Her eyes were cold as steel as she left the bare cottage, leaving the pious man to his fate. One day they would learn that nothing good came of being Father’s favorite and find no sympathy on her part.
